a long long night!!!awoke again.

good morning,

早安！

,selamat pagi,

kaleh wanakem(tamil),

ohayo(jap).

Now is 1.12am.i had awake for study my introduction to counselling.it is really a long long night and also a "scarry night".long long night because i have to cram all of the syllablas in one 7 hours ,scarry because i had a nightmare.and i think the nightmare was stupid.i dreamed that zoombies and alien was outside my room and there are vast number of them.and i so scarred utill i awoke with sweat .now i finally understood why people say 日有所思，夜有所梦。i think i played too much left 4 dead already.left 4 dead is a game that killed zombies.i so miss that game.but i cannot play in this moment because of my final exam.so tonight is the night for me to burn the midnight oil and fight for it......^^.

Burning midnight oil!!

now is already 12.20am i still haven't sleep yet,because i do the last minute job which is my psychology paper.this is the most difficult paper in this semester.during  midterm i got a very low marks in this paper so in the final i must get higher mark if not i think i will fail badly.actually this is not the things i wanna to tell for today.i wanna to tell is i was so amazed touch by my Shepherd .her name is karen.shortly describe she is a very tough girl i ever met,she is so talented she plays guitar very well.tonight,i did not went to prayer meeting because i doing my last minute work,and at around 10 something,my stomach started to groaning,so i called Toni which is my brother to "da bao" for me.unfortunately he did not answer the phone so i called Karen the,surprisingly she answered my phone.the reason i said surprisingly because usually ahe will not answered the phone or reply messages but today..wow really thank god..hahaha.then i asked help from her to buy me some food and a pack of nescafe.NESCAFE is a must espeacialy for students who burning midnight oil like me..hehehss..after that karen bought a pack of maggie goreng and necafe for me.then i wanted to pay backed but karen said no need.ooppsss..this is not the main point,not because of this i felt touch.but after that she said a word to me.dear mui mui don't give up.be in faith.and she said if you think you can sure you can.she gave me alots of encouragements.and of cause she sang our "main song"too.which is:十架的冠冕。before that i actually asked god to sent me an angel to help me to study psychology.then karen came out at this moment.although she did not know anything about what actually bout psychology but every words she said really helps me alots..thank god you sent me karen as my encourager.^^

YOU have teach me somnething

yester day after exam ,i was quite down because i did not know how to do in my exam for life span paper.but i keep on stand for it until the end of the exam.actually some of the question ,I'm quite confident,but i did not have enough time to cope with all the questions,because i spent a lots of time for doing brain storming in the previous pages.but suddenly something told me that i have to pray to god asked help and wisdom from HIM.so i began to pray quietly inside my heart then i did not know is that the miracles happened,i feel that time started to crawl slowly,not as fast as just now.oh really thank god,without wasting a second,i continue to write and write and write until all of the question done.wow..i feel happy at that moment,because i managed to finished my paper in time,although most of the time I'm crabbing,but i had already put all my effort and i had done my best too.i in faith in  god and i in faith in myself too.thought the paper was difficult ed but i still believe in faith.KEEP THE FAITH. YOU have teach me something..that is KEEP THE FAITH!!!

exam dAY..

Now is 11:55am..still morning.but my heart just like i'm now in the hell.because i just finished my first paper which is communicative english.i think i only can used one words to described this subject.hard!!it is really hard than what i expected ,i spent one over two hour just to answer the comprehension question.oh my gosh this test is mre harder than muet.then for the memorandom part,i totaly like a crazy woman try to scolding her college.i suppose to be soft and poilite altho0ugh i have to give warning to them,but because it is no extra time for me to think what i suppose to do already.the tone i used to wrotre just now is really harsh i think and unpolite tooo.without thinking twice i started to wrote my another essay.ohh goshh,when i see thoose question i nearly vomitted,because it is really like wanna to kill me.but at last i try to estimate what should i wrote and keep on my writting journey.apparently what i can said after i wrote that essy is *sucks*it is really the suckesss essays i ever wrotee..lol.i relly so scared i cant past my english exam.

this is the way suppose to be

today I'm so happy because i had finished a whole subject of life span development..i really need to thanks to my brother plus senior that same course with me.i cannot imagine how i past those time.because now i think back,it really drives me crazy and so unbelievable.i started to study at 10 something and we take a break at 12pm for our lunch.and then we come back home about 1pm ,then we continue our journey again til 2pm then my brother he went to church to practice tomorrow Sunday service's songs.so i take that chance to took a nap,til 4pm i continue again..then from that i started to study with the guide and help from my brother i succeed to finished the whole subject by 6pm evening..wow!!i feel I'm alive again,i can feel my soul and i ate

a study weeks..

arghhhh..exam will be approach soon ooo..so streessss,still not yet studyyy finished rrr...
emo emo abit first..hahasss..laterr  must catch up and ganbatte loo..^^..

i could sing of your love forever.

today i suddenly feel like wanna to worship god for this moment.this long time although i'm born in christian but i honestly not once i did devotion by myself.i worship god only in  church or service.surprisingly today i felt like wanted to worship and my mind keep on  playing "i could sing of your love forever "melodies..so i preffered this song.after all i love this song so much.and it  realy do touch my heart and made me feel "his"love and i feel peace as weel at the same time.

i could sing your love forever song

TIME IS A BEST HEALER

people always say time is a best healer.no matter what had happen,as time goes by one will forgot what had happen in the past.no matter how pain,how hurt was the incident,we could forget it,but depends on how long you spend to forget it..everything can be solve in this world,so please people,don't try to do something that may hurt yourself and your family,because once you still alive you can see a better tomorrow.